Out There, Somewhere

Out There, Somewhere
July 7th, 2009

Do I know you in this life
Or maybe in years before?
How long will it take me in these shoes
For me to explore?

Have I looked in the right places?
Have I waited long enough?
Why don’t you come and find me,
My diamond in the rough.

How long have you known me,
And why must I not know?
Do you know how much I have to offer you
In radiance and in glow?

Nice guys finish last
Too true as well for the nice girls,
Honesty, affection, and loyalty can’t even compare,
To the ones who only look like pearls.

Are you still thinking of me
Or are you not just as sure?
We must’ve known each other for a long time
A love like this is only pure

The best things are free
But how so easily they are never returned
Would you want to know how much
This fire flames and desires to burn?

I entertain the idea of us,
Cuddling beside one another,
Jealous and protective,
Warming our significant other.

I imagine you putting your jacket around me
When I’m cold or alone,
But I have to bring my own now
To your absence I can’t condone.

I’d like to walk, dance, and chat
About anything and everything somewhere low,
Somewhere quiet and cool,
Somewhere only we know.

An embrace so strong
Out of nowhere to console,
Don’t you know that even the simplest of hugs
Has the power to heal any soul?

I fear of being ridiculed and embarrassed
For the simple desires of my heart
Especially when majority opinions and my own
Are so very far apart

How do you perceive me when I’m not my natural self?
Knowing that I only want to give the best of me,
Even in my best gown and under flawless skin,
Would you point fingers in hypocrisy?

The dependent ones cling to me
As if that was my due
But they’re not the ones I want,
I’m only waiting for you

But now I must rely on myself
As my own gentle knight
For I am beginning to believe of your absence from this world,
With all my might.

Where has my confidence fled,
One has the right to ask,
I say you were only fooled
By the strength of my mask.